It's amazing how much free time I suddenly have.

[badseed1980]

Wow. Five days. Two men gone. Things happen fast around here.

Jason C. has found a girlfriend. I'm really glad for him, because I know he's a mature and well-adjusted guy who wants a monogamous relationship with someone he loves, not just a friendly involvement with someone else's girlfriend. And I can't say I blame him. I'm happy for him. And I'm even happier that we'll still be friends. I hate losing people I care about, and he's just an all-around good guy, and lots of fun.

But it still sucks. Especially the timing. I know he can't help it, but another couple weeks of recovery from the last guy to leave me would have been kind of nice.

I have to promise myself that I will try very hard to remember that all of this doesn't mean that other things are going to start going wrong. The good stuff that I still have isn't necessarily going to go away. I don't take it for granted. I never could. Every time I think of the blessings I have in my life, I'm overwhelmed with gratitude and amazement that I could be so lucky.

But things are gonna be a little tougher than usual for a while, so bear with me if I'm mopey.

Comments

[wolf-kells.livejournal.com]

"Chunky bad ones"

Sounds like a peanut butter gone horribly horribly wrong ...

But, I'm not trying to make light of your feelings ... just trying to make you smile.

*hugs*

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

*snicker*

Yeah, I almost said, "the bad ones are coming in chunks", and then I added "at me" because that had just sounded really gross. :)

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

eww, things coming in chunks is almost worse than rope-y

[wolf-kells.livejournal.com]

CHUNKY COME???

(All together now ... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWW!!)

Sounds like someone needs a doctor ... STAT!

[leenah.livejournal.com]

you be as sad as you wanna be dearie.

if you wanna hang at some point, contact me. miss seeing you.

love ya.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Aw. Thanks. :) I miss you too! I talked to MA last night on the phone. She says hi, and she misses you!

[leenah.livejournal.com]

aarrgghhh!!! i wanna talk to MA too!!!

'cause hey, while i miss you, MA is nowhere nearby, so no chance of maybe seeing her.

i'm jealous.

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you got to talk to MA last night too.

I'm sure it helped.

How is she?

And no, everything else is not going to go wrong.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Well, this thing with Jason only happened this morning, after I'd talked to M. She's doing better. Her son is doing well too, she says.

I just need something good to happen to me soon. I don't mean the continuation of the good stuff I have, though like I said, I am so grateful for all of it. I mean something new and good, to make up for this dump truck load of CRAP that's getting dumped on me these days.

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

yeah, like, say, Johnny Depp asking you to punish him?

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

yeah, like, say, Johnny Depp asking you to punish him?

Sure, or I'd also be happy with the other way around. Whichever he'd prefer. Actually, it doesn't have to be THAT good, but I wouldn't kick a miracle out of bed. :)

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

well, here's to hoping you find something fun to do, and soon!

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

I'm not even talking about a man. I'm just talking about something good and surprising happening to me.

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

I know. that's why I didn't say a man.

Like maybe a big concert you didn't know was going to happen, that you got tickets to or something like that.

get your mind out of the gutter
you're blocking the light down here

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Ok. I just know that usually when you say "something fun to do", you mean "someone fun to do". :P

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

well, shows you what you think of my mind.

I just want you to do something that makes you smile.

I miss your smile, and I don't like the thought of you frowning.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

I can't frown. Only pout. Something wrong with my facial muscles, maybe. :P

I did see something that made me smile on the way back from a spot of lunchtime shopping:
A boy, slender but well-muscled. No shirt. Pants riding so low (but not baggy) you could see the tops of his hipbones. Olive skin. Dark hair. Guitar slung on his back. Yum.

[witchyspyce.livejournal.com]

Hey...You be mopey and mad if need be! and take your time....

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :) Why did all this have to happen at this time of the month?