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[badseed1980]

It's funny, only one bad thing has happened today, but I've just been in the worst possible mood ever since. I just feel like I have the emotional equivalent of a really really bad cold. You know, the kind where your throat hurts too much to eat anything, you can't breathe for the congestion, your head feels like it's in a fishbowl, and you can't stop coughing. That's how I feel today, emotionally. An uncomfortable mess. I also feel like you do when you wake up at 3 am after going to bed at midnight, know you have to get up and get ready for work at 6, and just can't fall asleep again. Sleep would be good now. I just want to go home, crawl into bed (alone, of course, though otherwise would be better) and sleep for a week. I want to feel loved, and not just be told so in in e-mails for a change. I know there's no other option, but I can complain about it if I want to since I'm not placing any blame anywhere. I don't feel like doing anything tonight but sitting down and having a good long cry before falling asleep, and not going to work tomorrow. But I have obligations. I just feel like hiding from the world and everyone in it.

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hugs

[erik-j-meyer.livejournal.com]

hugs&hugs&hugs

hope you feel better dear

Re: hugs

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

thanks :)

[leenah.livejournal.com]

it happens darlin'.

right now i feel like a fat brainless blob who someonehow has to manage to get some work done 'cause i'm almost freakishly behind and the end of the fiscal year is closing in. but really, i'd rather curl up in a ball, have someone w/ a pleasant voice read Goblet of Fire to me, and maybe get a foot massage.

damn. that would be sweet. *sigh*

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Damn, I finished that (again) last night. Synchronicity.

[leenah.livejournal.com]

looking forward to OotP, 'cause honestly i read that WAY too quickly, and can barely remember any of it. but, i want to go in order so i don't miss something. would rather read that than process invoices or write contracts. well, duh, really.

[leenah.livejournal.com]

me give you smooch on the cheek. hope you feel as lovely as you are real soon. :)

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

thanks babe. :)

[j4yx0r.livejournal.com]

I love you, my partner in doomyness. This Oatmeal Stout's for you.

~j

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Doom doom doom doomy doom. :P

Thanks. And I'll dedicate the riesling I just drank to you, though I don't even know if you like the stuff. :)

[mystaya-sin.livejournal.com]

Hugs~ It's okay to feel lonely and sad. We all do sometimes. Just take a long bath and cry if you need too. Tommorrow is another day.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

I didn't get the bath, but I got to hang with the best people I know. :) Sometimes, the obligations I have can be a good thing.

[tigira.livejournal.com]

Well, I hope you feel better after tonight's activities. I have the physical equivalent going on. That's why I wasn't there. Bleh.

You're amazing. Don't forget that. You ARE. Just ask any of us that love you.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie. You're pretty damn amazing as well. We missed you tonight! *smoochies!*

[dolphindream.livejournal.com]

*HUG* I know those days. Actually, I tend to have the worst ones when I wake up in the morning from disturbing dreams. Talking of sleep making me sleepy now . . . *yawn* sleep helps too, just like with a cold.

take care babe. :)

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

You take care too!

[wolf-kells.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're feeling so awful.

*HUGS*

Hope you were able to get some sleep and that it helped. I had a rough night of my own a day or so ago, so I can sympathize.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Aw. I'm sorry.

I got just over 4 1/2 hours of sleep. Didn't go to bed until 1:15. I'm tired as fuck.

I am feeling better now. There's still sadness, but it's a cleaner kind of sadness somehow.

[wolf-kells.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. Sometimes a good cry can be the best remedy in the world ... kind of like a form of "mental floss".

Glad you feel better, despite the lack of sleep. I'm feeling pretty fuzzy myself today, since I've not been sleeping great lately either.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Well, a long e-mail from the boy helped. I didn't feel better until then.

Hope you get some quality shut-eye tonight!