Now that you mention it...

[badseed1980]

...I'm nervous too. It's lurking there under the happiness, as usual. Shite. I'm being Bert. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm afraid I'm pinning too many hopes on a few days. I'm afraid of ending up disappointed. Hell, I'm afraid I'm getting my hopes up too much in general. But only time will tell.

And I AM happy. I have done this before, welcoming a man I love home after months away, and it always made me happy. I think I'm happier this time than ever before. Somehow, that's the most frightening thing of all. Will I end up regretting the hope and trust that have put me here? I hope not.

Now I have to make my place ready.

Comments

[countrybeauty.livejournal.com]

Well, if you're only nervous, you're doing much better than I'd be in your position. I hope you get everything you hope for and everything you need out of the few days with him.

As for me, I'm hoping to get everything I need to out of my last week out here. I'm terrified that I will leave with Cody still not talking to me, and I'm dreading leaving Michael, because I will miss him like crazy.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

He's still not talking to you? Oh honey, I'm sorry. E-mail me if you want to talk about it. *HUGS*

[pauljtaylor.livejournal.com]

Apropos of nothing, it was lovely to make your acquaintance at whiteboy's birthday party yesterday.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Likewise. :)
I like being able to put a face to all the stories I've heard. Oops! Was that my outside voice? :P