The Homecoming

[badseed1980]

I have been on a diet now since early September. At this point, I have lost approximately 20 pounds. This makes a big difference in how I look. I had not told my mom that I was on a diet at all. My dad found out because he came to visit me a few weeks ago, and saw me when I'd lost about 14 pounds. He was impressed. I made him promise not to tell my mom, because I wanted to get a big reaction out of her when she saw me.

When she picked me up from the train station, she asked, "Did you get your hair cut? Because you look really good!" I said, "No, but I lost 20 pounds." Mom: "YOU BRAT!!!" She couldn't believe it. She was very happy for me. She's been on Atkins since March, and has lost 50 pounds of her own. She was so excited talking about it and listening to me tell her about my diet, that she missed her exit from the highway and got us hopelessly lost for almost an hour.

Anyway, she saw that the jeans I was wearing were practically falling off me. I could take them off without unzipping or unbuttoning them. I told her I'd been planning on waiting until I'd lost another 10-15 pounds to get new clothes so I could save money by not buying TWO new wardrobes. She insisted on taking me shopping, though, and giving me $100 to spend on clothes. I let her do that, and spent another $100 myself. I now have new jeans (size 8) and two new pairs of pants (size 9, juniors). Yes. I'd been wearing pants that were two sizes too big. She got me a new red jacket too, telling me I needed more than just my long black wool coat, and also some fabulous tops that I couldn't have worn at my previous weight. I also got, just for fun, a couple of adorable pairs of pajamas. (pierceheart, you will LOVE the pair that has open lacing all up the center of the top and the sides of the pants, in black and dark red! They're so sexy!).

I am so pleased with my new clothes. Now I can go to work without feeling all frumpy in my sagging pants that need to be pulled up every five minutes to keep from falling down on me. I feel like a new person, one who is emerging from a shell that was never supposed to be there. I'm getting back to where I'm supposed to be, and I feel better inside and out. I love it.

Comments

[tisana.livejournal.com]

Woohoo! Go you!

(I'm still having trouble picturing this--I haven't seen you in months--you should get someone to take pictures)

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

My mom took some...maybe I can get her to e-mail a few to me. And thanks. :)

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

you already no MY take on pictures, send some, send some, send some!

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

know.

need more caffeine!

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Yes :P

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

I will. :)

[cudubh.livejournal.com]

Congratulations! It tough to stick out, but gratifying to see results.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Yes, it is gratifying. :)

[ex-lark-asc.livejournal.com]

I really need to get my diet back on the go again, I'm a lottle too tubby to fit into most of my clothes at the moment. I've given up on the idea of dropping another clothing size for the time being but I would like to fit into the stuff I've got better than I do :)

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Good luck with it! :)

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

You know my opinion: You were gorgeous at the Beltane Bash, and I wish I had paid more attention to you that night (yet, not made things a bad memory).

You were gorgeous on the fourth of july, when I was still trying to look elsewhere, but could NOT take my eyes off of you. I never told you how happy I was that you and Melinda showed up! I still don't remember how I invited you all. But I am glad I did.

You were gorgeous even when I thought you were a snooty bitch, because of Anna.

You were gorgeous at the Flea.

You were gorgeous when I picked you up at the T, you were gorgeous, sitting there watching the movie, especially the look in your eyes when I said "Watch the movie."

You were gorgeous when first I laid you down on my bed.

You were grogeous at the farm in 03, at my OutStallation, at Mabon, at thanskgiving (all of them), at Xmas, and when I was home on leave.

You were then, and I assume still are, gorgeous in my eyes.

Don't ever change that.

I love you so much!

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thank you, love. I think that the main reason I was able to lose weight now is because I've come to be content with my looks at any weight--thanks, in part, to you and your love and support. :)

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

Seems counter intuitive, but I get it.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Well, it's easier to take a relaxed and healthy attitude towards things when you don't feel like your happiness hinges on them

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

Hmm. That could be an interesting view point to use elsewhere.

But I am sure you didn't mean that.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

*snicker*

Get your mind outta the gutter, you're blocking my light!

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

Um, I meant from an ENTIRELY different POV than you seem to think i was implying.

More along emotional lines.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhhh. Ok. Maybe I'm all alone in the gutter here after all. :P

[deadwinter.livejournal.com]

That's very inspiring. And yeah, I know that "shell" feeling all too well.

I think I'm going to take the food holidays as a personal challenge.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

The "food holidays"...mmm. I will probably indulge, but not allow myself to do so except on the days themselves. And I will keep it under control. No more going home from Christmas Eve dinner stuffed to the gills. :)

[countrybeauty.livejournal.com]

Ok, I want to know more about your diet....I'm going nuts fighting with my body on weight. It doesn't help that I'm stressed to hell, but there's no hope of that changing any time soon. So I need some better solutions...

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

I'm on Weight Watchers. I don't go to meetings or anything. I was able to get materials that help me track my points from a friend who DID go to meetings. Basically, the way it works is you get a certain number of points per day, determined by your current weight. I have 20 per day. The points value of a food is determined by a formula that takes into account calories, grams of fiber, and grams of fat. More fiber means fewer points, more fat means more points, for the same amount of calories. I have a book that lists the points values of a lot of different foods, including Chinese takeout, even. :) You can't get that without actually paying to join WW or knowing someone who has, who can give it to you. What I CAN give you is a points calculator. You can find it at http://thewurx.com/flex.exe . How much do you weigh? I can try to find out how many points you will need. I'm pretty sure it would be 18...you're under 150, aren't you? Like, way under?

The philosophy is basically this: cut down on fat, eat more fiber, and control your portions, especially on foods that have low nutritional value. Eat plenty of fruits and veggies (5 servings per day total, though I don't always get that much) and drink plenty of water. If you want to have a treat, you can, but you have to take into account what you eat the rest of the day in determining if that treat is a good idea.

It works. I am very much content on this diet, in terms of what I get to eat and the results I see.