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[badseed1980]

When will I ever learn not to write anything down if it matters, unless it's something I keep hidden? Morgan, damn him, was able to get online and read the post from the other day where I was all worried about him being distant and not caring. Fuck. I deleted that one specifically so he couldn't read it. I wanted to talk about it instead of having him read some stupid-ass self-pitying depressed LJ comment that made me feel like a loser to even type. He told me he wasn't going to have internet access at all. Grr.
Anyway, the upshot is good. The boy actually called me, and we hashed out a few things. I feel better now. It's weird. Last tiime I tried to talk to him about being upset, he really didn't seem to get how upset I was, or care all that much. This time, when I wrote it and didn't want him to see, it got through to him. What, do I have to post like some angsty teenager from now on if I'm hurting? Guess so. Hey, it worked. I am perplexed, still a little annoyed, but much happier and very much in love. Maybe this proves my writing is good for something after all.

Comments

[mystaya-sin.livejournal.com]

What good would it have done to hide your feelings? Instead he saw the words , reponded and you guys got a chance to talk about it. It all worked out fine.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

See, the thing was, I wanted to *talk* about it, not have him read it. I believe in communication, just real communication, not whining in a journal and him seeing it.

[dolphindream.livejournal.com]

I get what you mean about real, DIRECT communication. Live journal is still a journal, it's a place to vent, and although the feelings and thoughts might be there, you'd rather not have to communicate in a way that seems whiny. But sometimes when our attempts at direct communication fail, things just work out so that our point gets across one way or another. One of the things about any relationships (including friendship professional etc.) is that communication can always be improved, at least as long as people want to work on it. Glad things worked out! *HUGS*

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but it's not that the attempt failed, it's that I didn't get the chance. Anyway, as you said, at least things worked out. :)