Mild rant with no self-deprecation :P

[badseed1980]

Sigh. I think that when Morgan is away I will start filtering him out of my LJ posts. I can never guarantee that I'll be able to talk to him or even e-mail him directly before he reads them. Now he's e-mailed me all worried about my self-esteem. I just hope he gets my response soon, because I don't want him worrying about me and not understanding what's going on for days or more. Well, now I know, and knowing is half the battle. So Morgan: if you see this, consider it fair warning that you're going to be blocked from any LJ posts that happen while you're gone that deal with things I'd rather discuss with you in person or on the phone.

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[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

Do what you need to do.
People who care about you wanted me to address things to you, because they felt I would be better suited as your boyfriend.

It wasn't just based on the photographs thing.

I'm sorry you feel the need to screen me from things you want to discuss with me anyway. i understand the frustration of not being able to talk well, but if you put something up and wait for me to come home to talk about it, when i haven't seen the intervening posts, then it won't be at the same level.

love

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Ok. I think I should make this clear to everyone then. Please, if anyone feels the need to do this again, don't, ok? I know I can talk to Morgan about whatever is bothering me. If I need to talk to him ASAP, I'll e-mail him or ask him to call me or something. Otherwise, chances are it's something I'd rather talk to him about in person when he gets back. Some things, you just can't communicate in an 80-character text message. And some things I feel more comfortable talking about in person. Please, I know you were just trying to help, but please please please leave it up to me when and how I talk to him about things that other me, ok? Thanks.

And Morgan, this is for you. If you're going to contact me all worried, do it when we can have a conversation. Either several long e-mails back and forth or a phone call. Otherwise I think it does more harm than good. Now that we have a discussion started on e-mail, it's a pain in the arse not to be able to continue it. Please just work with me on this, ok? It's not that I don't want you to see my emotions while they're high. It's more that I need a better way to talk to you.

[pierceheart.livejournal.com]

I will do my best to be able to continue the email at least twice a day.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

thanks my love. :) I appreciate it.