FUCK!

[badseed1980]

It's not fucking fair.

Even IF I get to see him, which at this point seems doubtful:

1) I won't get to see him until 10 or so tonight.
2) I will only get to see him for part of tomorrow. Probably just an hour or two after I'd wake up.
3) Somone else gets him all the rest of Saturday, all Saturday night, and however long he's here Sunday morning. Probably at least twice as long as I get.

And this is the last time I see him for gods know how long.

Not fucking fair at all. Gods damn it, I hate the fucking army.

Comments

[dolphindream.livejournal.com]

*HUG* I'm sorry babe. That sucks. If you feel like it, you can come to my party Saturday night, but no pressure. Well, try to have fun tonight! Good luck.

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[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

He's not coming.
I still can't make the party, but thanks for the invitation hon. Maybe next time.

Me TOO!

[dee-cee.livejournal.com]

Re: Me TOO!

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

That's not the part that bothers me.

The part that bothers me is the lack of time I get. The fact that others would have gotten more would just have been salt in the wound. Not the biggest deal.

Of course it's all irrelavent now. He's not coming home. Which is worst of all. There's no "what I have" to be happy for. I was afraid of that. FUCK.

Re: Me TOO!

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

And yes it IS kind of condescending. Well, maybe that's not the word I'm looking for. But it does make me feel shallow and inconsiderate on top of being lonely and miserable already. I'm not. I didn't have any antipathy against him or her. I just felt envy for the greater amount of time they would have had.
Anyway, like I said, it's a moot point.
I hate this. I hate having to be afraid that the last night I spent with him could be the last night I ever spend with him. I hate the fuckers who are taking this away from the soldiers, who are getting ready to go to war and risk their lives for this country. I hate the fact that they're getting treated like shit for no good reason, and therefore their loved ones have to get punished as well!
And I'm done ranting, I guess.

[ayalanya.livejournal.com]

fuck.

*HUG*