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[badseed1980]

And GODS DAMN YOU for not having the fucking common sense and tact to talk to me directly about this, but to post in your LJ. To send me a tiny short e-mail saying nothing, and then to post this SLAP IN THE FACE "I'm sorry, but I really don't apologize" where I didn't see it until later. You say you love me but you have no regard for my feelings. I want to leave you, but I'll be as miserable without you as I am with you. You give me things no one else can give, and I am so deeply in love with you it scares me. But everything you say and do makes me more and more convinced that you really don't care how I feel. Or at the very least, you care much much more about yourself than about either of the two people you say you love.
I had hopes that you would really be able to treat us equally, that you would be good to both of us, but those hopes are daily diminished.

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[j4yx0r.livejournal.com]

*hug*

~j

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

*hugs bacK*

Thanks.

[mystaya-sin.livejournal.com]

Laura call me

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Thanks Marrah. I don't have your number, though. I'm gonna talk to a friend this evening and see what I can figure out. Don't worry. I feel like I've been run over by a car, emotionally, but I'm not about to start doing anything stupid.

[mystaya-sin.livejournal.com]

if you need a shoulder I am here to listen.