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Mar. 3rd, 2004 02:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
badseed1980Ok.
I think it took until yesterday or today (these time differences fuck me up) for the clue-by-fours I swung to *really* hit. I feel like the playing field is a little more even now. I think I finally got through to Morgan exactly how much I need him to talk to me, and the fact that I can really handle the truth. I feel like he's more likely to give me what I deserve now. This means the tough stuff as well as the fluff.
For the first time in a long, long time, I don't feel utterly helpless. I don't feel like things are being kept from me. I don't feel paranoid.
Even though I can't really say I'm *satisfied* with everything yet, for the first time in a long time, I'm happy. And I'm not so much afraid.
I think it took until yesterday or today (these time differences fuck me up) for the clue-by-fours I swung to *really* hit. I feel like the playing field is a little more even now. I think I finally got through to Morgan exactly how much I need him to talk to me, and the fact that I can really handle the truth. I feel like he's more likely to give me what I deserve now. This means the tough stuff as well as the fluff.
For the first time in a long, long time, I don't feel utterly helpless. I don't feel like things are being kept from me. I don't feel paranoid.
Even though I can't really say I'm *satisfied* with everything yet, for the first time in a long time, I'm happy. And I'm not so much afraid.
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Date: 2004-03-03 12:34 pm (UTC)