The dancer and the dance

[badseed1980]

Sometimes, OK, fairly often, I don't feel like a real dancer. I am not a professional. I do not perform often. I only take one class, once a week. I don't practice anywhere near enough. I'm not innately talented. I am not technically proficient. Years of this sort of lackadaisical study have led me to improve, for sure. So has listening to belly dance music very often. Even so, though, I often feel like a fraud or a half-assed play-actor compared with my classmates.

Today, I listened to the music and played around with it before I even started trying to dance. Then I improvised a bit. Finally, after finding some interesting ideas in that playing-around, I started working on the choreography itself. I went through a portion of the music at a time, from beginning to end. I sometimes watched myself do a move in the mirror, and when I did, I saw a dancer. Go figure. :)

Comments

[nepenthedreams]

That's awesome.

[saffronrose.livejournal.com]

So glad you saw yourself as a dancer in the mirror. Tribal moves do not come easily to me, and I don't practice as much as I should, either.

[vieux-yeux.livejournal.com]

You know, sometimes I feel that way about choir. Do I have any business fighting for a spot in my uni's two best choirs if I'm not a music major or even particularly talented? But, you know, it's about doing something soul-nurturing that ISN'T your major. And at the end of the semester, when I'm in that choir dress singing my lungs out next to the director's pet music major, I feel like her equal. :)