Something's brewing.

[badseed1980]

I don't know what it is. But I can feel something building in me, getting ready to come out. Something to do with magic. I feel it more strongly than I have in the past. I feel like if I do a spell now, it will actually work for a change. Gods know I *should* do one. There's a lot of personal transformational work I ought to be doing, but it's hard for me to figure out exactly what it is I want to happen. Once I do, I will do a big mojo working. In fact, maybe I should start while the moon is still waning. There's a LOT of crap I need to get rid of and banish totally. Maybe I will melt the broken black candles I have and make new ones. Maybe I will bathe in salt water. There are a lot of things I can think to do as *forms* of the spell, but so far the goal is too nebulous. I wish Morgan were here. I'd like to talk to him about this. Maybe my friend who's been a more powerful witch than me since she was eleven will be able to help. I don't know. But I sometimes feel like she can't really understand how difficult it is for me. So maybe not. It's funny. I seem to approach everything I do either backwards or from a really bizarre angle, so that no one can advise me on my path when I need it. It's like I need directions to a place, and their website lists directions from the north, south, and west, but I'm coming from the east. Hehehe. Anyway, I guess I need to find my own way a lot of the time.
However I do it, I feel like something is starting now, and things are poised to happen. I don't know if it's the season, or my own cycle, or just a hint of premonition about something in the future, but I feel things building. I want to create some change. Time to start planning.

Comments

[elissa-carey.livejournal.com]

So far as self-improvement is concerned, the first question you need to ask yourself is what about yourself do you want improved. Is it tangible, like a change in appearance (hair cut, contacts or glasses, weight loss), or a bit more nebulous, like breaking a bad habit, or forming a new good habit, or learning something new?

It's like a maze. You know there's a beginning point (where you're at right now). But if there is no end point to locate (a goal), that makes it ten times harder to negotiate your way through, like stumbling around blindly in the dark with confusing signals all around you.

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

It's nebulous, more of a state of mind and of emotional well-being that I want to attain. It's mostly a matter of finding out which individual problem or problems I want to focus on.

[elissa-carey.livejournal.com]

*nod* Maybe make a list, and then prioritize it? Or if it's even more nebulous than that, brainstorm -- write down whatever comes to mind when you think on it. That should help clarify things. You could also do a spell for clarity, asking for focus for the purpose of figuring out what you need. Or, even more simply, use a little aromatherapy to see if you can't induce that.

Or some combination of the above. :)