Something's brewing.

[badseed1980]

I don't know what it is. But I can feel something building in me, getting ready to come out. Something to do with magic. I feel it more strongly than I have in the past. I feel like if I do a spell now, it will actually work for a change. Gods know I *should* do one. There's a lot of personal transformational work I ought to be doing, but it's hard for me to figure out exactly what it is I want to happen. Once I do, I will do a big mojo working. In fact, maybe I should start while the moon is still waning. There's a LOT of crap I need to get rid of and banish totally. Maybe I will melt the broken black candles I have and make new ones. Maybe I will bathe in salt water. There are a lot of things I can think to do as *forms* of the spell, but so far the goal is too nebulous. I wish Morgan were here. I'd like to talk to him about this. Maybe my friend who's been a more powerful witch than me since she was eleven will be able to help. I don't know. But I sometimes feel like she can't really understand how difficult it is for me. So maybe not. It's funny. I seem to approach everything I do either backwards or from a really bizarre angle, so that no one can advise me on my path when I need it. It's like I need directions to a place, and their website lists directions from the north, south, and west, but I'm coming from the east. Hehehe. Anyway, I guess I need to find my own way a lot of the time.
However I do it, I feel like something is starting now, and things are poised to happen. I don't know if it's the season, or my own cycle, or just a hint of premonition about something in the future, but I feel things building. I want to create some change. Time to start planning.

Comments

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

It's nebulous, more of a state of mind and of emotional well-being that I want to attain. It's mostly a matter of finding out which individual problem or problems I want to focus on.

[elissa-carey.livejournal.com]

*nod* Maybe make a list, and then prioritize it? Or if it's even more nebulous than that, brainstorm -- write down whatever comes to mind when you think on it. That should help clarify things. You could also do a spell for clarity, asking for focus for the purpose of figuring out what you need. Or, even more simply, use a little aromatherapy to see if you can't induce that.

Or some combination of the above. :)